Something I have been learning is to remember that God's plan is perfect - now sometimes I might disagree and say that my plan is better but it's not. I have to remember to look to Him and what He wants me to be doing not what I want. I also have to remember that my choices effect others mostly Payton and Kevin. I know that if I am still and listen for His voice he will lead me where he wants me to go. It is amazing how His plan includes all the things I want just in a different way or at a different time.
Right now I am waiting to hear if I got into grad school, if it is what God wants then it will happen and the finances will work out. I had applied 2 years ago but crummy financial aid and getting pregnant it just ended up not working out. God will close the doors he needs to show me what I should be doing - sometimes I am sure he has had to slam a few to wake me up. One thing that I know for sure - He will guide me no matter what it takes or what he has to do.He will be there to lead me back the the path I often stray from. It says so in the Bible - Jeremiah 29:11-14 was in my Bible study this past week - it says 11 " For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you
So I ask you, are you doing what God wants or what you want? Are you the person He wants you do be ? It is hard and we can easily stray lead by jealousy, greed or many other things. We think we can do a better job and really we can't Because His plan and only His is perfect - all others pail in comparison.Think about how great things will be when you follow what he wants. I always love that feeling of not having to worry and just knowing he is in control - it will be ok no matter what I am facing. When I put my trust in Him and let Him lead me amazing things happen and everything I was worrying or stress about falls into place. God Is so GOOD! This song is a good reminder of that.

You Are Good - Nichole Nordeman ( Sing Over Me)

When the sun starts to rise and I open my eyes
You are good, so good
In the heat of the day with each stone that I lay
You are good, so good

With every breath I take in
I'll tell You I'm grateful again
When the moon rises high before each kiss goodnight
You are good

When the road starts to turn around each bend I've learned
You are good, so good
And when somebody's hand holds me up, helps me stand
You are so good

With every breath I take in
I'll tell You I'm grateful again
'Cause it's more than enough just to know I am loved
And you are good

So how can I thank You
And what can I bring
What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king
So I'll sing you a love song
It's all that I have
To tell You I'm grateful
For holding my life in Your hands

When it's dark and it's cold and I can't feel my soul
You are still good
When the world has gone gray and the rain's here to stay
You are still good

With every breath I take in
I'll tell you I'm grateful again
And the storm may swell even then it is well
You are good

So how can I thank You
And what can I bring
What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king
So I'll sing you a love song
It's all that I have
To tell You I'm grateful
For holding my life in Your hands