I have been thinking lately about what God wants me to do …. I was watching a Francis Chan podcast and he was talking about surrendering to what God wants for us. He and his wife talked about feeling that God was leading them to work in a third world country or somewhere else. It really made me think about what was God telling me and what he wants me to do but also my family. Why am I getting my masters – is it to teach children here or somewhere else? Is it just to show me I can handle so much more than I thought I could and not even use the degree? Sometimes I think we all get so comfortable with our lives that it is hard to go outside our comfort zone – to break away from people or lifestyles and do what God asks us too. We just go through the motions but are we doing what he wants or what we think he wants us to do. Sometimes we make choices because it is what we want or it is comfortable but what if God asked us to move away from family and friends and live in another city or country would we do it or would we not listen and turn our backs on him. It has made me think are we living by the world's standards and what it says we should do or what God says. It is easier to live by the world's standards and be comfortable instead of living by God's standards and what he wants and be uncomfortable. I learn so much from being uncomfortable and having to do thing I may not want to do. It may be making a phone call or something else that makes me uncomfortable but I am so proud of doing it my self- having people do things for you is no way to live – really you should at least try to do it. I am really shy and I am not good at stepping out of my comfort zone but I know that doing it sometimes make me strong . I want Payton to be a stong independent woman when she grows up I need to be a good example and teach her how to do things on her own. If I don't think I think I failed her – if she is still depending on me to do things when she is 30 then really I didn't do my job. Not that she can't ask for help when she needs it that is fine and as a mom we want our kids to need us even when they are grown up.
I see so many people I know make bad choices because they think it is what they have to do but really think for your selves and pray to God for answers and direction. There is no law that says you must go to school, or get married or even have kids – God gives us all desires and he has a plan for us to follow if we just listen. It is hard I know – I do the same things because it easy or comfortable but God asks us to leave it all behind :our families, husbands and children – to even deny ourselves for him. If he asked you to move to Africa or India would you do it- It would take a lot to go do it to surrender to what God wants for me and I know it would be hard but he would teach me so much. It would be an amazing life experience that would shape me and my family. I have thought how amazing Katie is to follow God – leave everything she knows to go some place she knows nothing about to do what He wants – and she is only 22! Maybe for some of us our mission is closer to home there are so many here who need him and need help. There are kids who don't have a lot in our own country – kids who don't have enough to eat and I think that is so sad that in our country that has so much there are still people suffering. There are so many who have less than I do and they are doing what God wants , they truly seek God and his will.
